Its coming to get me again. I’ve been living in a beautiful world of I’m-not-pregnant-not-because-I-can’t-have-kids-but-because-I-can’t-see-my-husband and those negative thoughts that seemed to be a little too common in these preceding thoughts had almost all but disappeared. Hope and normalcy had replaced them.
But I’m starting to feel them coming back. Even though I’m still living in this beautiful, chance-less world.
And part of me is blaming these blogs. I can’t seem to follow my own advice and even though I have a rule to not post when I’m emotional, I’m doing it now.
So I’m going to put my headphones back on and drown my irrational, garbled thoughts in audible encouragement to the tune of these songs.
At least, that’s what encouragement sounds like to me.