I was walking back to my car last night after a self-induced sucker punch from Facebook and I was counting my blessings that it was dark so other people couldn’t see the tears running down my cheeks, softly but uncontrolled. I should do more things at night, I thought, since its easier to hide my emotions. And that’s when I literally almost got hit by a car. As in, it swerved and I had to jump out the way to avoid death. Apparently my tears aren’t the only things invisible at night!
I felt like that was a literal reminder from God that my self-pity may very well be the death of me.
So I sucked it up and tried not to cry the rest of the way home. It was semi-working when I decided to turn it to the Christian station to get some inspiration (my car radio has been stuck on Tejano as my only means of practicing Spanish since I got back to Texas). That’s when this awesome song came on:
I was thinking it was a perfect song and just what I needed to hear. And then I turned north on the final street home and I literally heard the first chorus of “Light up the sky” right as lightning lit up the sky in a thunderstorm off in the distance directly in front of me. It was surreal. I just sat in my car until the song finished. And I’m taking it as my small miracle for the day.
[And yes, I realized later that maybe the DJ saw the storm and purposely played that song, but still! Sometimes miracles are all about timing. I’ll take what I get.]
Also, I decided to just keep my blog the way it is for now. I will probably not discuss medical specifics of our situation due to my lack of anonymity (at least at this point), but I will still discuss these matters of my heart and soul, because to be honest I feel like that’s what is more “at risk” at this point. Thanks for listening. You don’t know how much your comments mean to me.
And today is Dia de los Muertos! Oh how I wish I was in Mexico with my husband today. Praying for the souls that have gone before us.