A (not so) encouraging story

10Aug11

The third clinic was the charm today. That’s one thing that stinks about moving to a new area and trying to explain to each receptionist that you need your blood drawn for hormone testing, but that your doctor is out of state so you’ll actually just need that blood back now thank you.  I’m just [...]

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Blindsided

09Apr11

What do you get when you mix no sleep, health crisis, and last minute major revisions to your thesis that your adviser decides to make a week before you defend?  With “small calculations that will take no time at all”?  Oh right, a semi-meltdown that looks like this. At least, that’s what I’d like to [...]

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It’s not you, it’s me.

08Apr11

Blog fast is going great.  Too great.  Sorry I’m not more descriptive, but my mind feels like a cross between a mushy melon and an intensely focused targeting machine, zero-ing in on random points and moving on to the next.  And I’m aware that probably made no sense. This post is not going as planned. [...]

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No such thing as the real world

28Mar11

In these days of anxiety, deadlines, and pressure, I can’t help but look forward to my ‘real life’ starting. Except I have no idea what that entails. And then I wonder if when real life is here, will I just look forward to something else? (Despite your opinions on his interview skills/life decisions, his music [...]

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How to tell people about your sub-fertility

08Feb11

I brought up yesterday how amazing it was to be pleasantly surprised when a friend reacts in a supportive way.  I want to reiterate that I understand that not everyone will react that way and that the actions we take to protect ourselves are just that, to protect ourselves.  It was just a nice reminder [...]

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Fight, flight, and fertility – A little more personal

27Jan11

I’ve realized I may not have done the best job explaining exactly what I meant by “what makes me me” yesterday.  So if you didn’t read that, please do.  I attempt to clarify how I think that study relates to me here as well. I can’t seem to access the full article now, but what [...]

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The day I felt the most loved

26Jan11

Before I tell this story, I’d just like to clarify that there are days I have felt unloved by my husband.  I am sure there have been many more days where he’s felt unloved by me.  There are days where I think, how could we ever handle a child if we argue like this without [...]

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